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OPEN ø shut your mouth, baby, stand and deliver

WHO: rey + anyone!
WHERE: hangar / atrium / misc
WHEN: 6-9th? the first few days of her arrival
WHAT: rey arrives, immediately starts sticking her nose where it doesn't belong
WARNINGS: n/a, will update as needed

[ THE HANGAR ]

( it comes as no surprise to rey that it takes no time at all for her to end up surrounded by ships. she's still not entirely convinced that this isn't some weird first order trick, but if it isn't then it's just plain weird. either way she's happiest when she's around vehicles, so that's where rey ends up. the place may be strange but this isn't, and the smell of the hangar is immediately familiar to her. it even manages to tease a smile out of her otherwise scowly face.

at any given point she can be found nosing around various ships. mostly she's content to just lurk from the outside, but occasionally she'll push her luck and climb up the outside to get a better look at things. she's got her mask on though, so there's maybe some plausible deniability if she gets caught? maybe. probably not, honestly.

she starts warming up to the area quite quickly, enough so that she's happy to start experimenting a little with the tools available. there's things that need fixing all over the place -- including the workers -- and rey very ""helpfully"" invites herself to join the crew. is she useful? yes. has she been in any way invited to join in with repair work? no. not at all. she also has some very specific ideas about how exactly some parts should be fixed, which she is glad to make known very loudly. feel free to stop the girl arguing with an actual robot at any point, because she's not looking likely to calm down.

as the days begin to wind down, rey should probably find her bunk. and yet here she is, still lurking in the hangar working away. when she's finally tired enough to call it quits, she just finds a ship with their entrance open and sleeps just inside the main doors. sorry to anyone who actually owns it, rey's only planning on staying a few hours at most, she swears. )

[ THE ATRIUM ]

( this place transfixes her for entirely the opposite reasons to the hangar. growing up on jakku, rey has barely experienced greenery like this, so she becomes kind of obsessed with the rooms. she mostly avoids the zen gardens and sand, not because it bothers her so much as having very little interest in the place, but the gardens.

well she just adores the gardens.

rey is pretty much always barefoot when she's in here, practically running around like a kid in a candy store. her eyes are alight, beaming completely unhindered as she explores every nook and cranny of the place. when she's done that she climbs a tree and sets herself up for a while, idly watching the other people visiting the atrium from her vantage point. it's not at all creepy, she swears. occasionally she might drop her head out of the foliage to greet a stranger, but for the most part she stays hidden. she loves it up here. )

[ SOMETHING ELSE? ]

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( it doesn't happen often, but every now and then people will introduce themselves to her with their full name and rey will feel a pang of jealousy. she doesn't know the name erso, probably she wouldn't feel it if she knew just how complicated the name actually is, but there's something about a person actually knowing their family... it gets to her. but that is also far too close to feelings for her liking, so let's not spiral down that particular rabbit hole.

back to jakku. if the amused look on her face is anything to go by, it's pretty clear that rey has no fondness for the place. she's certainly not going to be the one to defend it, even if it hasn't been long since she'd been desperate to get back. ) Sand and junk and lost tourists, that's all there is to Jakku.

( she shrugs, kicking her foot lightly against the floor. she can't deny that she hates jakku more than she does most things, but it's still her home. she almost feels guilty badmouthing it. )

What's your home like? It had to have been more interesting than Jakku, right?

[ her mouth twists to the side, thoughtful. ]

Home is-- [ cassian. bodhi. chirrut and baze. never letting melshi forget all her fantasies about beating him up. ] I never stayed anywhere long enough to call it home, not since I was a little girl and Lah'mu was just dirt and rain.

[ misty grey beaches and rocky outcroppings and so much mud it was a wonder she stayed clean at all, tromping around in the wet grass with her cavalcade of dolls going on adventures. the real hero of the story is the person that produced a storm trooper doll that stayed white in the mud. real imperial heroes. ]

Doesn't sound all that different to Jakku.

( it is, of course, a completely different terrain, but the fundamentals don't sound so different at all to rey. maybe she's just making assumptions, projecting some of her life onto this woman who strikes just enough of the same chords to feel familiar, but it sounds lonely. she understands that, at least. )

The only other place I've been is Tadokano, ( she admits with a kind of casualness that is supposed to mask how much the situation might actually bother her. it does not mask how the situation might actually bother her, like at all. ) apart from here, of course. Assuming here isn't some Force mind trick.

( she's like. ninety per cent sure it isn't. )

It's not. [ bluntly. ] There's too many people.

[ and also she is dead so if this is some force shit, well, she is a force ghost and she's very solid so she doesn't think that is the case. but she makes a mental note to ask kay the likelihood of a massive force-induced hysterical fever dream. ]

I was born on Vallt, but we moved to Coruscant when I still a baby. Then Lokori, then we went to Alpinn before we went back to Coruscant. I was six when I left Lah'mu. [ so many outer rim planets, so little time and slowly the 'we' turned to an 'i' and that's depressing. even more depressing is that the last place she considered home she hasn't seen since she was six. she's definitely not six anymore. ] I've lost track of all the planets I've been to unless I was in prison there.

( well that puts that to rest.

it's a nice logical explanation though, one she'll file away for use of her own later on most likely. she's not sure which is the preferable option, really, but there's some comfort in believing it's not just her going through this. )

Did you ever have a favourite? ( she has to guess it wasn't one of the prison planets, but she's curious. rey of course has two places ( three if you count the first order's star base, but she very much doesn't ) to choose from, and it's not a choice at all, so in short jyn's story is kind of fascinating to her. she tries not to make it quite so obvious that she's hanging onto every word, but she really, really is. ) I wasn't born on Jakku, I don't think, but I don't remember anything before it.

[ if jyn remembered it, she would say alpinn, because tromping around the planet as a three year old had been a blast and all her mother's fellow researchers loved her. funny how she used to enjoy being the center of attention and now she loathes it. attention is dangerous now, especially with her name. galen erso's daughter was a commodity, the ultimate threat and bargaining chip. ]

I'm not sure. [ she didn't go to many places for the fun of it and she struggles to find a place she likes best. home isn't a place for her though, it's a handful of people that forced themselves into her heart and stayed there when everyone else abandoned her. home was bodhi and cassian and, she will never admit it, kay. home was baze and chirrut and saw and her parents letting her color on the edge of their research because galen could never say no to his daughter. her chest tightens thinking about her father. ] Eadu.

[ a terrible, rubbbish heap of a planet, home of one of her worst memories, but also home of one of her most fragile and precious, her father's fingers touching her face. i have so much to tell you. she didn't care. ]

Eadu? ( she doesn't mean to sound completely and utterly shocked, but rey's not exactly particularly skilled at masking her immediate reaction. she's never been great at maintaining a good sabacc face, shock and surprise always show instantly. this is why she's always avoided gambling. )

I thought you said it was just rocks?

It is. But my father was there.

[ and that is really all that mattered, in the end. her hands spread with a shrug, as if to say, i don't make the rules. ]

( that's all she really has to say, honestly. rey Gets it immediately, and her face twists into a wry sort of smile as she folds her arms over her chest.

watch out, things are about to get real emotional here. )

I thought my family would come back to Jakku. So I stayed.

( if by "real emotional" we mean "less than twenty words of feelings between the pair of them" but you know. progress. )

[ she stayed. jyn feels a familiar heartbreak, reminded of waiting in the shell turret for saw to come back. he hadn't, another parent gone and jyn with no idea what she had done wrong again to drive him away. because surely it was her fault. you can't be abandoned by both parents and your surrogate parent without having done something terribly wrong. ]

Did they? [ she knows the answer already but asks it all the same. ]

Not yet.

( maz wasn't wrong when she said rey already knew that they weren't coming back to jakku -- but it's still too real to actually say it, to verbalise something she's kept to the quiet recesses of her mind for longer than she remembers.

so, not yet, not no. )

I'm sorry about your father.

( it's a bit presumptuous. she said "was", sure, but that could just as easily have meant he left the planet. but eadu was destroyed, and rey knows grief when she sees it. it's easy to put two and two together. )

[ she shakes her head, tells rey the same thing she told bodhi, mitigating the grief and pity. ]

I barely knew him.

[ knew enough, maybe, but all her memories were faded from childhood or else the shell of the man he used to be. her father was a stranger to her when he died, but cassian still had to drag her away. she would have taken a stranger. ]

Still.

( rey's spent enough time mourning a family she doesn't remember, mourning a parents that may as well have never existed. she doesn't even remember who dropped her off in jakku. she's spent enough time missing the absence of a family to empathise. it's not the same, of course, rey's parents could still well be travelling the galaxy -- she has to believe it's possible -- but still. still. )

Is he why you joined the rebels?

No. [ but, ] Yes. [ it's complicated. she hadn't joined the rebels so much as been raised into it thanks to saw. she hadn't joined the alliance, either, they had joined her. she rebels, but is she a rebel? ]

The man that raised me was a rebel, one of the first. I guess I took after him.

Well.

( she pauses, touching a hand to her cheek as she thinks for a moment, and then she just tries to look amused instead.

it's not quite a subject line, but she neatly hops away from the heaviness all the same. it's starting to sit on her chest uncomfortably and rey doesn't much like feeling like she's about to choke. ) I was recruited by a droid.

[ is that a laugh? if jyn did that sort of thing, sure. as it is, it's a faint approximation of a laugh. ]

You and Cassian would get on then. His best friend is a droid.

( success, she got a laugh. or as close to one as she suspects she'll get anyway. )

Really, what model? ( surprise surprise, she's actually kind of a huge dork. ) We had an astromech, a BB model, they're newish tech.

( she doesn't want to say "after your time" but. she basically said it. )

KX. He was an Imperial droid that Cassian, um, liberated from his programming. Now he's not an Imperial, but he is a bit of a nob.

[ which is said with some affection, questionable as to who it's meant for. he is a butthead, but he is their butthead. even if he won't admit he likes her. ]

There's nothing like being insulted by a droid.

( particularly in binary, which rey has had a couple of times around the niima outpost. who keeps programming these droids to be so sassy?? )

Imperial ship, imperial droid. People might get the wrong idea, you know.

We've got an Imperial pilot, too. [ now that it's been listed like that, it sounds almost funny. if it weren't for their lives being terrible, horrible things entirely. ] He defected. We wouldn't have been able to do anything without him.

[ BECAUSE HE IS THE BRAVEST PERSON IN THE ENTIRE GALAXY AND SINGLE-HANDEDLY SAVED 2016 SO DON'T FUCK WITH BODHI ROOK. too good, too pure. ]

He must have been brave, it's not easy leaving. ( something that she should have had a chance to tell someone else, too, but in lieu of finn this will have to do. )

I met a defecter too, a stormtrooper.

( WHO LIED ABOUT IT but still. )

[ her eyebrows lift in surprise. ]

I didn't know they could defect. [ she knows, intellectually, that there's people inside those suits, she's beat up enough to hear very human sounds of pain but. well, they're storm troopers. they just do as they're told. they don't have opinions and ideas and their own personal rebellions. ]

Neither did I, ( she lifts her arms, a vague gesture intended to mean something like "and yet...". until finn she hadn't even really thought of them as people, terrible as that might be. ) he didn't tell me at first. Guess I get why, now.

( now that the world seems bigger than just a spur of the moment lie from a man who had been a stranger to her. it's amazing what time can do for perspective. )

[ she remembers the distasteful stares the alliance rebels had given bodhi and his uniform and he was only a pilot. she can imagine how they would look at a defecting storm trooper. or her father.

she can also imagine draven's orders.

she pushes to her feet, brushing her pants off before motioning inside the ship. what she wouldn't give to go back and punch him in the face. knowing the logic of his orders and respecting them are two vastly different things. ]

Go on then, finish whatever you were doing.

( if she were holding something rey might drop it. )

...Seriously?

( she's sort of already half on her way to clambering back inside, even as she says it. she's not going to look a gift horse in the mouth. )

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